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20 August 2020 @ 02:20 am
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how far does the surveillance state reach out?Collapse )

PS: If you're the type of human who can't stand other people talking back or having a different opinion: LEAVE. Get yourself a therapist.
Besides, I can't stand it being part of other people's collection of +150 friends. If you're so desperate, find someone else, I'm the wrong person.
Current Mood: predatoryparanoid
Current Music: Element of Crime - Finger weg von meiner Paranoia
18 June 2016 @ 03:57 am
Ich hoffe, dass ich's schaffe, den Beitrag hier überhaupt zu Ende zu schreiben. Rechter Ellbogen macht grad nicht wirklich mit, aber schlimmer dran sind die Hände durch eine vermutliche Sehnenscheidenentzündung.
Odyssee von Arzt zu ArztCollapse )
Current Mood: crappycrappy
I've been dating a muslim for 3 weeks in April. He was a nice dude and all, but most of his sentences started with "I expect my future wife to be [...] and to not do [....]" bla bla bla.

Here are some impressions of these 3 weeks: lots of drawings under cutCollapse )
Current Location: Stuttgart
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: No music, watching ML Baseball
Ich male jetzt schon seit...16 Jahren? Und habe schon die ein oder andere Technik ausprobiert. Hier eine Zusammenstellung der Materialien und Beispiel-Bilder.
Unterm CutCollapse )
Current Location: Northern Hemisphere
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: Genetikk - Strawberry Fields
25 August 2015 @ 11:48 pm
I am looking for my own flat now. Should have started doing this long ago, but work kept me busy. And I was quite comfortable at home.
Also, there was this issue that my parents quickly got pissed when I mentioned leaving home.

In our community, muslim women are not supposed to live alone without a father, or a husband, or a brother. A muslim woman is not allowed to travel without a male relative. If a woman does not follow these rules, people will think of her as a slut.
Welcome to my world.

But these last few months I noticed for the first time how I'm being treated like a child:
- "Do not stay up late, go to bed!"
- "Who are you talking to on the internet? You don't know these guys!"
- "Why did you spend your money on XXX, what do you need that for?"

It is none of their fucking business what I do with my time and money and who I talk to in teamspeak.

There are also these small things that really bug me. Living with 5 people in the same apartment suffocates me. People keep barging into your room, 5 people create a lot of mess, so everyday, one of us 3 sisters falls victim to doing lots of laundry, or cleaning, vacuuming, etc. Bathroom's always the worst.
We almost always agree on who does what work in the household, but honestly? I don't want to keep cleaning up after many others for the rest of my life.
So the only solution is to get my own flat, so I'd only have to worry about my own shit and clean up whenever I want.

When I first told my parents that I want to leave, I got a huge shitstorm in return. So I kept quiet for a while, kept looking for a flat and when I got the firts appointment for a viewing, I mentioned it again to my parents.
Suddenly, they were completely fine with it. Wtf? Did they stop caring what our community whould think of me? O_O
Only mom was like "Haha, I hope you won't get that flat". And I really didn't, appointment got cancelled OTL

Anyway, I might perhaps buy a flat, my budgies getting their own personal room, so they can do shit without bothering me from morning till evening. They're also one of the reasons I need more space. They're cute and all, but I can't have their poop in my bed or between my toes any longer...
But, just imagine, one big room, one big playground for my babies. Looking forward to it.
Ich fange jetzt schon an den Blog-Eintrag zu verfassen, noch bevor ich überhaupt mit der Wackelpuppe angefangen habe xD aber ich möchte das alles nicht erst schreiben, wenn ich schon fertig bin, weil ich das Modellieren einer Wackelpuppe zum ersten Mal mache und sonst so tun würde, als hätte ich die ganze Zeit eine Ahnung davon gehabt, was ich tat.

Was ich hier jetzt vor mir liegen habe:
Creall Do & Dry - Modelling Material - regular terra 1000g
Gibts zu kaufen beim idee. in den Filialen oder im Onlineshop (der grad offline ist, nice..). Der Preis: 2,99 €

FIMO Modellierwerkzeuge - Preis: 3,49 €
Ich wollt da jetzt net tief in die Tasche greifen, aber es gibt auf Amazon weit bessere Werkzeuge, die sicher mehr taugen.

Desweiteren: Bleistift, Radierer, Pinsel, eine Schale mit Wasser, und für den Hals und den Wackeleffekt: eine Kugelschreiberfeder.
Anmalen werde ich's wahrscheinlich mit Acryl, Wasserfarben kommen in diesem Fall nicht in Frage, weil die Knete zwar an der Luft trocknet und hart wird, aber mit Wasser wieder eingeweicht werden kann (steht auf der Packung).
Hier geht's weiter mit Bildern und einem VideoCollapse )
Current Mood: creativecreative
Current Music: Here's a Health to the Company
23 February 2013 @ 01:38 am
Wanted to share my do-it-yourself 3D aquarium background. Fails included XD
And pictures of the result:
making-of with lots of fails / or: what not to do when creating your own aquarium background xDCollapse )
11 October 2012 @ 03:02 pm
Ever since chapter 399 (and even before that), KHR! became more and more ridiculous, until chapter 405 appeared. With this chapter, Amano added something into the story that will likely mess up everything, because we all know Amano's way of storytelling and that she NEVER thinks anything through, NEVER.

This is what I imagined when reading this chapter. Heavy spoilers aheadCollapse )
16 September 2012 @ 01:29 am
Okay, I start to feel bad about spamming this fanart everywhere XD but I think that's what kept me going back then when I was still young, feedback made me incredibly happy xD

This is for bethlam: le cutCollapse )

Currently working on the budgie door sign. I want to try something new by using only colored ink. Those Winstor & Newton inks are supposed to be mixable, but I never tried that before.
Well, I want to try that because the backside will have another illustration(mafia budgies XDD), and copics would bleed trough.
Current Mood: artisticartistic
Current Music: Hoobastank - Disappear
06 September 2012 @ 11:59 pm
Because Amano's artwork is very bad lately, I want to show the difference between the absolutely boring wishy-washy fighting scenes of the current arc and the Varia arc.
le cutCollapse )